My name is Dazai and I am not human
I hate conformity. I want the ability to go where i want when i want, without having to be restricted by rules and manners that society came up with. I don't want to be boxed in by things society labels as "normal". Why should i follow the paths of society? A group so disgusting, toxic and hateful? What do they know? Shameful, really!
But even if i get the freedom i want, what good will it be to me? I will still feel the need to follow the paths of society. It's how i grew up, after all. A burdened people pleaser. I'm all give and no take. Maybe, the real thing blocking my path, is me! If i morph myself into something unidentifiable and ruined perhaps that would be truly freeing. Let me destroy myself. Hehe sorry ♪
No real "gender" has felt right to me. Genderfluid? i think so. Non-binary? i guess so? Agender? Ehhhh. Not even unlabeled feels right to me. I am a husk of many people and characters i admire. I am simply an cartoon animation. Wacky and exaggerated. I used to switch through a lot of labels, not because i truly identified with them, more so that i found that label cool and that people would find me cool if i used it. Stupid, i know lol (‾▿‾)
"The cage is open, you can fly out any time you want. Why are you still in there?"
"The cage is all I know."
PS: this was a really old vent that I still relate to